Sometimes it’s been this way for me. If people knew the personal circumstances I have faced they wouldn’t believe it. But we all have our times where challenge becomes adversity. How can we rise and find our inner resources which we know are there, if only we can tap into them, to let us face what is before us, to deal with it, not only well, but magnificently.
One day I found The Warrior Queen in me.
That morning I sat in bed hands on my heart and started to pay myself some attention, at last, and to give myself love, loads of it.
I talked to myself with the love, tenderness and care I would give to the person I loved most in the world, who was weak and low and needing my love.
I gave myself total recognition for everything I am going through right now, everything I am, and all that I do for myself and for others.
I told myself I love you in the way I say it to my beloved.
I gave love and thanks to my body for all it does for me and for the battle scars it carries, yet still to be healed... in the form of my excess weight ....and promised my body that the time will come to tend to this and thanked it again with love and deep appreciation for bearing everything the struggling me has put it through until now. I thanked my body for the time ahead, should a future struggling me neglect its needs again.
Then I turned to God and the Angels and asked for their love, a cry from the heart. "Almighty God, creator of all things, knower of things, who is all compassionate, all merciful, let me feel your Love. I need it now."
I felt the softest lightest gentlest energy descend on me, and bathe my whole body and spirit. I drank from it, and drank and drank until I was satisfied and received the reminder that God and His Angels are always there, loving me always, that I just need to turn my attention, to ask and receive to my full whenever I want whenever I need.
Then I told myself for all the things I need to do now in my life... 'I CAN do it', one by one ‘I CAN do it’ for each task before me.
All of this energy was fed direct into my energy heart, the centre of me, my spirit. From my hands direct into my heart energy poured into my body. I felt warm, strong, renewed, satisfied. I felt love. I felt loved in my whole being.
I released my hands, raised my head and opened my eyes. I had become Warrior Queen with strength, courage, power, belief and passion for all that is ahead to turn adversity into triumph. And that I will do.
Sandra Hillawi 11 April 2010