Today my beloved is having his final gamma knife treatment for brain tumour diagnosed in February. He is in a hospital in Saudi Arabia. I am here in Gosport UK. The energy ride we have had in the last months has been big, very very challenging, very very demanding. Im depleted in many ways. How do I help myself?
So I ask myself What do I need more of?
Achievement of Quest
Well that’s a good list to start with.
I shall start with the last, Nature nurture and see what that does to my energy, just to give me enough resources to be able to help myself.
In my garden
Soft caress of the summer breeze
Gentle rustling of the leaves
Bird song dances through the air
Natures love is everywhere
Afew minutes of tuning in to nature helps to create a lightening at least in my head , body energy is still heavy and blocked.
I reach out to connect with nature. I hold in one outstretched hand the branch of a tree and in the other the branch of the hibiscus bush. I stand in surrender my body connecting the nature’s energy circuit. Natures flows through me. Emotions well up from my heart, releasing. I feel some soothing and the gentle love of nature.
I notice and meet the rose
Heavenly Rose by Sandra Hillawi
Heavenly heart soothing scent of the rose
Even as it harbours the fly and the tiny spider
Not sure who today has become who’s prey
Still the rose releases without condition
Its love fragrance to the world
Blind to its beauty until today when I stop to look
Heavenly scent of the rose
Caressing my tired soul
I breathe you deeply in
That you bring life to the still deep waters of my spirit
Heavenly scent of the rose
I bathe in your generous softness
Waters start to move and darkness turns to grey
Heavenly pink of the scented rose
Gently your petals unfold and open to life
In connection with the source of all life
Beauty and love
That I may come and partake today
I thank my rose the bearer of heavenly gifts
My spirit stirs grey waters turning light
And as if by a miracle the sun comes out
A miracle of light
Warm power emerges from behind the cloud
Sun streams down to my thirsty body and soul
Bathing quenching generously strongly powerfully
Recharging my inner batteries
And then in a moment its gone
Behind the cloud
Teasing me with its splendour
Tempting me with the feast I hunger for
And then it’s back and I am ready
I embrace the sun
I savour its bounty til I am fed to the full
Arms outstretched head back I open to you
Flood my soul and energise my spirit Glorious Sun
And now my energy levels are up. I am at a +3. Now I feel the heavy blockage in my chest and I can pay it some attention. I take afew minutes to upoload the new poems to mysongsandpoems blog
What else to I need? I return to my list of energies.
Achievement of Quest
I add : Music Movement Life
And choose a playlist :
Michael Buble’s Everything
My own recording of Till There Was You
And I dance ............................
Energy and feeling now is + 4.5 and I can smile
Then I find:
Walking on Sunshine : Katrina and the Waves
I dance like crazy ....... and yes ! I feel gooooood even laughing and a bit breathless ............+ 6
Dare I think a spot of happiness is flowing ! Now I want to listen to MY SONG Its Love, but its not produced yet so I sing it and dance it.
5 people have liked my new poems and subscribed to my blog this morning!!!! Wow. All I need is some customers coming in now ! In much better state to work and pick up the phone, IF the phone was working!!! Ha ha!
I recheck my list of what I need because its changing.
I have some power happiness laughter love strength lightness is coming change is happening faith is good and easiness is starting.
So I need :
Reunion with my man
Achievement of our quest – same as Reunion
So when I think about money – what happens in my energy system?
Heavy in my chest. I need a Money dance. I play Walking on Sunshine again and think of Money. I dance again like crazy. And Im laughing now.
Energy up to a 7. Feel aliiiiive ! Yesssssssssssss
Email booking enquiry comes in for Positive EFT
Money feels better, weight in chest lighter tho still there. What else can I do for it?
I want to be a 10 though my battery power is definitely up now and Im ready for work.
I thank Silvia Hartmann for calling me this morning and sending me out to the garden ! :-) Thanks to Michael Bublé and Katrina and The Waves
Conclusion, even though the circumstances may be challenging I can still manage my energy system so its flowing well and I feel good and have more resources to create the life I desire.
Inviting in certain energies, bringing energy nutrition improves energy and as a consequence simply makes us feel better. I choose to pay attention each day to care for my energy body to keep restoring the flow til the circumstances in our life can change. I now have my prescription for lifting me from below zero to at least +7, even if I have to do it each day for now.